Gone til November...or maybe December

I'm okay. Need to get away. Survival.

Let's play a game

How many turkeys died in the filming of this press conference?

And why does that turkey slaughterer appear to be so peaceful as life dies in his hands? Alaskans are strange.

Celibacy

Men - how do (or do you) deal with a woman who has chosen to be celibate?

I know 1) not a lot of men visit this blog and 2) not a lot of men would be inclined to keep it really real and say, "I stay with her, but get broke-off on the side."

But what if you were in the mood and just needed your release. Would you exercise patience? Or would you have a bit of fun on the side and justify it in your head as, "well, I just needed it, it didn't mean anything."

Women - What say you on the matter if you've been in a relationship while celibate.

A topic for discussion...

Mimi - What say you on the new Kanye? My home-skillet told me that I would like it. so far I do - but this is strange. It's an R&B album, no? Dude is singing his heart out. Pain makes one evolve. Me likey the more I listen.

I can't tell if my version is messed up or if it just sounds weird. I'm liking Say You Will.

Beyonce is growing on me, slowly.

Cupcakes

I admit - I watched about 3 hours worth of the Real Housewives of Atlanta tonight. Yes, that's 3 hours of my life that I can never get back. I wish there was some lesson to leave with folks. But nope, it's pretty much a trashy show.

Not one of the women are self made. They all married, divorced or are sleeping with $$$$-men and are using some man's money to try to live out their dreams. I mean, I ALMOST think it looks like an appealing lifestyle. Get dressed up in $1,000 dresses, have some phantom charity, fund my dream on somebody else's bank roll, look fabulous all the time. Really...where is the downside to that? Ohhh, that's right all of these chics ended up looking hella stupid on television. *I do like NeNe though - she's that friend that's a bit extra, but is always funny and might keep it a lil' too real*

Anywho - on my fav message board, a few women were going back and forth on Lisa's husband, Ed Hartwell. And I quote, "I bet his balls smell like cupcakes." LMAO.

Grrrr

I growl, yes...I make weird sounds.

So grrrr.

There was a VERY attractive fellow at work. I peeped his hand for a ring. Nothing. I only see him in the mornings on occassion when we get breakfast.

After a little bit of digging stalking I found out his name and that he's married. GRRRRR.

In my internet research stalking I didn't come up with anything. Except that he's 31, from Jersey and I found that he lives on the west side of ATL. And that his wife runs marathons. These here internets tell all.

But sigh - I really thought this dude was single because he doesn't wear a ring. He was soo freaking cute y'all. So cute (and I don't say that often).

When was the last time that you did a little background on a guy? Did you find anything interesting?

I'm just not that into you.

Okay for real - do you say this to people?

I threw out a faceitious comment regarding realizing that you're not into a person on Creole's spot.

"I'm just not sexually attracted to you; however, I really enjoy your conversation. I thought you'd physically grow on me, but when we kiss...there's absolutely no blood rushing to my lady parts. That let's me know that our chemistry is completely cerebral...which equates to us being only friends."

Or

I'm not interested in you.

I mean either way - shit stings. At least with the first one, there is a concrete reason. If somebody were to say, "I'm not interested in you," I couldn't just leave it at that. I'd follow-up with all sorts of questions. "Why? Did I do something to offend you? Did I say or do something to turn you off?" In my mind, I think back to that one silent but deadly fart that I let out and tried to blame it on the 3 year old that was near us. Maybe that was the relationship-potential-killer.

OR I just stop claling, which isn't fair either.

And quite frankly, I'm not caught up on the mode of communication. I'm an e-mailer. I can't think straight when emotions are involved, the disconnect between my heart brain and mouth becomes more than I can handle.

But yeah - I've been open to dating men that I wasn't initially ravenously attracted to because I thought, "well I'm not repulsed by him. Some of my previous loves didn't start off in some crazy passion...but then again, my previous loves developed in the comfort of college and before where I wasn't even checkin' for a relationship at first. It just evolved. Shit is different now. In order to get to a know a person, you tend to carve time out for them, rather than just having a random convo at the bus stop."

I'm aries, part of my sign says that I don't know how or when to let a person go. This has been the second part of the 2008 story. First half, I was let go of a life and I wasn't by any means prepared for the severence of those relationships. Second half, I can't get rid of cancerous relationships. I have moments of strength, then I have moments of utter loneliness that linger from the batshit-crazy-Q1/Q2...which make it too hard for me to let go of the bad-bridge-to-no-where relationships. Does that make sense? Ionno - it's like at times something is better than nothing even when that something brings you down.

I am Sasha Fierce

So my friend sent me a download of the new album. Ummm. Yawn.

That is all.

The N Word and Facebook

Guess what y'all? I was doing a search on facebook for all those that graduated from the high school that I would've graduated had I stayed in Ohio. I lived in Ohio from pre-K through 9th grade...10 years. So naturally, I feel like Ohio has a piece of my heart.

It also happens to be the place where I was called the n-word on the playground by some beyotch.

Guess who I found on facebook?

What do you think I should do - let it go, post a status message, inbox her directly or breathe get off of this computer and go to work.

What's new?

With me...

Worked out of time like a slave last week. But I did catch up with my cousins.

Hung out with my Little today - took her to the World of Coca-Cola. I MUST say that place really does make me happy.

A friend from the past called me up and invited me out. Interesting twists to come in the future.

I'm terrible at ending relationships. TERRIBLE. I couldn't pick up momentum on Miracle Man, it started great...but then everything fell off on my behalf. Is it necessary for me to call him and be like, "Ummm yeah dude, just not feeling you. There's nothing you or I did, I'm just not feeling you like that." Any suggestions folks?