I'm watching NBC instead of MSNBC. It's a good feeling.
One thing that I can admit and realize is that shifting my focus to the election allowed me to vacate from my own thoughts and feelings. So it was kind of nice.
But now I'm starting to settle. I got my president. I've got a good job. But I still am wanting a lot.
More than a vacation I want refuge. I'm glad it's holiday season. That means a few trips back home. I've decided that I'm going up to DC in 2009 as many times as I went to Miami last year. I think that DC/VA will provide the refuge that I'm seeking. Getting back to friends and family as often as possible. It's black alumni weekend (yes we have special weekends at pwi's) in April, I'd like to bring the new year in up there, I'd like to see the Cherry Blossoms for my birthday (3/31 - crap it's a Tuesday, well the weekend after or before) Let me tell you I still don't even like thinking about my birthday this past year. I tear up thinking about it. But whatever, it's in the past. I'd like to go to a football game, I'd like to drive up 64 as the leaves turn all sorts of beautiful colors. I want to see my best friends, not because I have business and/or something else to do...but just because I want to see them.
God if it weren't for this job and this mortgage - both of which I don't want to be taken away from me...so this is not some type of prayer that I want you to answer through job loss and foreclosure...but I'd like a new vision or an opportunity to go toward something new. (Yeah, sometimes when it comes to prayer, I'm weary...right after I talked about the two things that keep me here, I feared that one of God's possible answers was joblessness and foreclosure - is that cynical?)
I'm out of Atlanta by 2015. I'll be 34. Who knows if I'll be loved, or loving a family. But I do know that my days are here are limited.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
Where are you? Hope all is well.
Post a Comment