My 4th of July

I left for Philadelphia on Friday, July 4th at 8:30 am. I hadn't been to Philadelphia since grandma passed away, so it was somewhat emotional. As I mentioend below in another post, I was curious about this "Laws of Attraction," talk that had been attracted to me in various different ways. So I stopped by the airport bookstore and picked up a copy of the book.

After reading the first 80 pages, I put the book to practice. I found thanks in the things that I feel good about in my life and thought the things that I would make me happier. So much of my 2008 has been clouded with negativity. I've had quite a few failed relationships and I've dwelled in the negativity of that too long. Using some of the techniques in the book, I shifted my focus to what I want. I want more good people in my life.

So I'm sitting on the plane and the young woman beside me casually asks, "Do they serve drinks on the flight?" Given that I haven't flown US Air in forever, I responded with an I don't know. Conversation went from there and come to find out, this young woman went to my Undergrad, lives about an hour away, but comes to ATL every now and then. We had quite a pleasant conversation, exchanged info and will probably keep in contact.

Essentially my thoughts of being surrounded by good people materialized before my eyes.

Friday I saw John Legend (that's one sexy MOFO, actually he's pretty much my prototype, cept my cousin told me that women aren't quite his type *frown*). However, we got rained out before the fireworks. Saturday I saw Boys II Men perform at Penn's Landing; however we got rained out before the fireworks. Not to mention I had a IBS attack that was so painful it brought me to tears.

We spent Saturday with my cousins who just had twins...they have a quaint spot in Upper Darby. They're in their late 30s, have a 9 year old and just had twins, but still manage to be some cool peoples! I saw what I'd like for myself. They don't have the biggest this, the greatest that...but they have love. And it hasn't always been pretty. But they understand the meaning of marriage and family and it was so beautiful to me. And being around the twins who are only 3 months old made me want more than ever to be a mother. First thing is first of course, I want to be a wife. But being around the family made me reject this notion that I'm doomed to be single because I live in a chocolate city and men just don't want to marry. The men that don't want to marry are not the men for me.

TANGENT: Men that don't want to marry confuse the shit out of me, honestly. In terms of the survival of the fittest concept, not wanting to marry is a form of bloodline suicide. I say all this not in terms of them having a relationship with a woman, but creating an optimal situation to raise children. Granted, dude could contribute to the 70 per cent of black children are born to single mothers statistic. But in a true primal sense; a man is driven to not only spread his seed, but to create a situation in which that seed can survive and spread the seed into future generations. Name one culture on earth in which it is not customary for a man to take on a wife (or something equivalent). The wife takes care of the home and the man provides for his family...because in the primal sense, that is the best way to ensure that his offspring succeed. Hell, I JUST heard a situation in which a 77 year old Indian man wanted a male child so badly that he and his 70 year old wife went through IVF and JUST gave birth to twins, one of which was a son. Clearly his desire to have his blood and name carry on was STRONG.

Anywho, I veered way off track. I felt so positive about The Secret, that I let my sister have it and bought msyelf another copy. It really is no different than Christian Science; however, it's principles based instead of rules based. At times it's hard to stay encouraged through religion because when you fall short you must BEG for mercy to be saved. And when you fall short, it's frustrating to have folks looking at you like, "Hmmm you're going to hell, you know?" Whereas the law of attraction isn't religious per se; it taps into your soul and suggests various thoughts and actions to guide you toward happiness and love. (which is essentially the goal of most religions).