I'm just not that into you.

Okay for real - do you say this to people?

I threw out a faceitious comment regarding realizing that you're not into a person on Creole's spot.

"I'm just not sexually attracted to you; however, I really enjoy your conversation. I thought you'd physically grow on me, but when we kiss...there's absolutely no blood rushing to my lady parts. That let's me know that our chemistry is completely cerebral...which equates to us being only friends."

Or

I'm not interested in you.

I mean either way - shit stings. At least with the first one, there is a concrete reason. If somebody were to say, "I'm not interested in you," I couldn't just leave it at that. I'd follow-up with all sorts of questions. "Why? Did I do something to offend you? Did I say or do something to turn you off?" In my mind, I think back to that one silent but deadly fart that I let out and tried to blame it on the 3 year old that was near us. Maybe that was the relationship-potential-killer.

OR I just stop claling, which isn't fair either.

And quite frankly, I'm not caught up on the mode of communication. I'm an e-mailer. I can't think straight when emotions are involved, the disconnect between my heart brain and mouth becomes more than I can handle.

But yeah - I've been open to dating men that I wasn't initially ravenously attracted to because I thought, "well I'm not repulsed by him. Some of my previous loves didn't start off in some crazy passion...but then again, my previous loves developed in the comfort of college and before where I wasn't even checkin' for a relationship at first. It just evolved. Shit is different now. In order to get to a know a person, you tend to carve time out for them, rather than just having a random convo at the bus stop."

I'm aries, part of my sign says that I don't know how or when to let a person go. This has been the second part of the 2008 story. First half, I was let go of a life and I wasn't by any means prepared for the severence of those relationships. Second half, I can't get rid of cancerous relationships. I have moments of strength, then I have moments of utter loneliness that linger from the batshit-crazy-Q1/Q2...which make it too hard for me to let go of the bad-bridge-to-no-where relationships. Does that make sense? Ionno - it's like at times something is better than nothing even when that something brings you down.